One hour ago, I saw my world shattered before my very eyes. I got an angry phone call from Judith, demanding I explain Kiera's comment. Kiera commented on my blog. Kiera commented on my blog.
She's not a character from "my" story. She's not a character from some unknown author's story which I then claimed as my own. She's a person from Damien's life.
How could it be real? How could all of it be real?
And yet, I remember those chills that ran down my spine when I was at the field or when I looked out at the red brick building. I remember those chills, and I can begin to believe.
Yes, I claimed Dreams in Darkness was my story. It wasn't. It was just some story I read on the Internet. I'd started watching Marble Hornets, got into EverymanHYBRID and Tribe Twelve, and then went through all those blogs. I read Just Another Fool, Seeking Truth, and Dreams in Darkness.
I noticed no one ever claimed authorship of DiD, even months later. I never intended to become the author of its book, I just tried to use it as a way to sell myself. I lied to everyone: my family, my friends, Judith. When those publishers offered me a deal to adapt it... I couldn't say no, not to all that money and fame.
I never knew it'd lead to this. I didn't fucking know. How could I know there was some guy out there who'd gone insane? It's not my fault Mary died. It's not my fault this Harry kid killed his family. It's not my fucking fault. I just wanted to make some money, get my career started, and get published. I never could have known this would happen. It isn't my fault.
I never could have known it was all real. Damien, Ted, the deaths, the cults, the bone, Slender Man. Are all the other stories real too? Logan, Zeke, and all the rest?
It's too much to wrap my mind around. I still doubt. I only live a few towns over. Why didn't I hear about all those deaths last year? Surely something would've been in the news. Maybe Rick was right. Damien was just a madman, writing a story. It's the only thing that makes sense.
Dreams in Darkness can't be real. It'd change everything.